This article is a re-vision that the author began 2 years after writing an ethnography titled Kaleidoscope Notes: Writing Women's Music and Organizational Culture. This ethnography has taken up residence in her mind and heart. She is happy to have it there. However, there have always been questions lurking at edges of this happiness- questions about authorial positioning, questions about what it means to write an "alternative" ethnography. The publications process added other queries: How is she accountable to those she has written about and the people who will publish her work? How does she balance these obligations with the realities of revisions and deadlines? She wrote this article to provide some tentative answers to these uncomfortable questions. This article is a re-visioning that asks the author-and the reader-to consider these questions, to leave the safe structure of awareness for the shared and contested skin of experience.