Malaysian laws prohibit the personal and public production, dissemination and storage of written, pictorial and digital representations which are deemed indecent and obscene, including pornography. In a country where sexuality remains a largely taboo subject, and where any sexual identities, behaviours and acts that fall outside of heteronormative socio-cultural and religio-political realms are hastily upbraided, prohibitions of pornography share similar spaces with the criminalization of non-heteronormative sexual expressions. Such approaches occlude insights that may be gleaned from the meaning-making of gay-themed pornographic material by gay-identifying Malaysian men. Drawing on a larger socio-theological qualitative project involving interviews with 30 non-heteronormative Malaysian men, I examine the narratives of two gay-identifying men. By analyzing, interpreting and theorizing their lived realities through a constructivist grounded theory methodology, aided by an analytical framework consisting of queer theoretical ideas and further fortified by pornography and sexuality studies, I demonstrate how pornography consumption is understood by gay-identifying men as: a means to perform and make sense of sexuality; a self-validated avenue of pleasure; and a site of interior struggle.
- Constructivist grounded theory methodology